Filed under: Thoughts
Being a stay at home mom did not come naturally to me. That being said I would not change it for the world. I was not the little girl playing mommy with baby dolls. I was Barbie with the corvette and big corporate job. I got married which was shocking to me as well and my husband said if we have kids I want you to stay home with them. He is a great man and he would stay home if I had a more lucrative job. Having a second child is a whole new level of parental stress. I have no idea how to get out of the house on time. Dressing two girls and me also making sure that diapers all all clean and hair is done is just time consuming. It is the small things that make it so worthwhile. When my little girl looks at me and says “I love you mama” or when she laughs really hard when her daddy laughs. I love my daughters and I am so glad that I have them.
Filed under: Thoughts
My husband is a great father he is so interactive. We were at the store and my daughter has decided she wants to wear her underpants so in the middle of the store she says that she needs to go to the potty and I was taking care of the fussy baby so Bryan takes Venice to the men’s bathroom in the store. Later I find out the utter ciaos that ensues in said bathroom. So my husband is in a bathroom stall feeling like a molester because Venice is saying over and over “I want mom” so he is saying “we will go see her after you pee. Remember she is in the toys department waiting for us.” Which makes him sound like he is hiding something because of the detail of his description to her. After a long time of no urine being expelled he takes her out to me and two minutes later she again states that she needs to go. I offered to take her but he did not want the fussy two month old. However he was never approached by anyone trying to save the child begging for her mother. I am unsure if that is a good thing overall. Well I think that potty training sucks! Running into a store with a two month old and a two year old while leaving the dog in a cold car and trying not to knock things down while running holding hands and flinging a car seat wildly around in attempts to not take out other kids walking by. I really think it would have been much easier if I had done all of this before having another child. Oh well I am sure that this too will pass. And if I am lucky I will get amnesia and not remember!
Filed under: Thoughts
Here are a few things that I have learned in my vast thirty two years:
1. You must love yourself for if you don’t no one else truly can.
2. Marry a nerd. They will always cherish you.
3. If you choose to have a second child wait till the first one is potty trained.
4. If you make your decisions based on your moral code you don’t have regret.
5. Communicate openly with your spouse about everything from sex to money and the earlier you start in your relationship the less issues you will have.
6. Choosing your spouse should be the most selfish decision you ever make.
7. You can choose your reaction to all things that happen in your life or as my mother always said “you can go just as crazy as you let yourself”.
8. “Some people cause happiness wherever they go and others whenever they go”. Think it over.
9. Let those who you love know it often. Life is fragile.
10. Show people who you really are if they hang around they are good enough to know you.
Filed under: Thoughts
We had a large glass bowl just hanging around and being a huge pain to store. So Bryan suggested that we put fish in it. I was at the store and I decided to get some fish and surprise Venice with them. It was the cutest thing ever, when I walked in and showed her she was so excited and said “oh thank you mamma!” She loves them so much she watches them and feeds them when we let her.
Filed under: Thoughts
This year we got a Christmas tree. In all the years that I have lived in my own place including all the time that I have been married we have not decorated for holiday’s at all. I guess I do have to say that the first year we were married we thought we would try and make a home and get a real tree. We soon found out that we are not filled with the Christmas spirit. We got lights and opened the package but never put them on the tree. So after the holiday’s we finally got around to disposing of the real, dry and dead, tree in May. So we never put up a tree after that till now. Bryan and Venice were wandering around a store and he said she got so excited looking at the lights and decorations. We surprised Venice with a fake pre-lit tree on Thanksgiving and we are going to put lights on the porch. I cannot believe how much children change your life.
Bryan feels like he has a Christmas tradition, which his mother I am sure would not be happy about, he puts some picture on the top of the tree. Replacing the angel with icons such as Spiderman or the Hulk. So now that we have a tree and we are going to decorate it he put a picture of Patrick Swayze on top of our tree. I have to say I am such a patient wife.
Filed under: Family
I have not written in a very long time. Life with two kids is much more complicated. However we had a lovely Thanksgiving Bryan made a turkey and we had our friend Ginger over and my mother and sister Tiffany. We made way too much food but we were taking some over to my dad and uncle so it was fine. This was so much fun to host our first holiday party. We has small quarters however it was good times. I love my girls it is so crazy to think that I am the mother of two. I did not take any pictures and I am so mad at myself. I really should have pictures of a first Thanksgiving. Maybe I should make all the food again to pose for pictures. I doubt I will. I did make some lovely rolls from scratch. I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving!
Filed under: Vienna
I am now in my eighth month of my second pregnancy and I will say for me these pregnancy’s have been so different from each other that I am amazed that my body is doing the same thing again. My first was a girl and they say this one is as well. It is so weird how they many medical professionals say to me “is this the same gender as your first?” Oh well I guess that it is only fair that I go through some of the systems that many women go through. My fist pregnancy was very smooth. My huge fear is that this child will be harder to take care of as well. My first child is very aggressive but very obedient. I think I am truly scared because I have no idea what this will be like; I know it will not be like my first child because this is a completely new person.
My blood pressure is high so now I have to have non stress tests weekly. Today was the first and it was very stressful. I was in the hospital for three hours! On top of being very time consuming I failed and have to go back tomorrow. I am so tired and my doctor keeps telling me to drink more water, I keep telling them I drink almost 100 oz a day how much more can a pregnant woman’s bladder take? Oh well I guess this is just a part of pregnancy. I am very ready to be further along in this process. Well I guess I will take it day by day and see what happens.
Filed under: Thoughts
My dearest Bryan,
We are rapidly approaching our five year anniversary and I just want you to know some of the reasons that I love you so much.
I love:
- You are my best friend and I never tire of talking to you.
- We both love road trips and no matter how long we are on the road we never fun out of things to say.
- You are strong enough to let me be who I am and love and accept me.
- You are more then I could ever have asked for as a father for my children.
- That you play ponies with Venice and take her on buggie hunts and read her stories.
- That you will do everything you can to make sure that we are taken care of and that I can stay home and raise our children.
- That you love your girls so much.
- The fact that you want me to have what makes me happy; you will drive your old car into the ground but let me have the one I want.
- That sometimes before we go to sleep we end up talking for hours and laughing so hard tears come to my eyes.
- I respect you.
- You are an honorable man.
- I love that you love my mother so much, as well as my family.
- I know you will always be there for me.
- That I feel as comfortable with you as I do alone.
- You have been able to take on so much responsibility and enjoy it.
- I love the way you look at me.
- YOU!!
Filed under: Thoughts
Complete the sentences and tag your friends. Please tag me so I can read your answers!
1. My ex is… a good friend.
2. Maybe I should… start a business?
3. I love… my husband, daughter, dog, family all that jazz.
4. People would say that I am… powerful.
5. I don’t understand… hypocrisy.
6. When I wake up in the morning… I realize that a two year old never runs out of energy.
7. I have lost… my mind, babies eat your brain.
8. Life is… the perception you choose to make it.
9. My past taught me… I am strong.
10. I get annoyed… with people who do not think before they speak.
11. Parties are… fun if you do not have to clean up after them.
12. I wish… I had more energy.
13. Dogs are… great if they obey the owner.
14. Cats are… selfish.
15. Tomorrow is… another day.
16. I have a low tolerance for… idiocy.
17. If I had a million dollars… I would pay off bills, get a good working car and save up for the future.
18. I am terrified of… someone running up the stairs behind me.
19. I’ve come to realize that my last kiss… was short, I miss seeing my husband.
20. I am listening to… the swamp cooler try its guts out to cool me off.
21. I talk… too fast, sometimes.
22. My friend(s)… are good people.
23. My first real kiss… was at the doorstep of my aunt’s house in California when I was twenty.
24. Love… is the best thing ever when you find the right one.
25. Marriage is… wonderful, why did my mother never tell me it was so good?
26. Somewhere, someone is thinking… do you promise I don’t know if I believe it.
27. I’ll always… stand for my morals.
28. The last time I really cried… today. Shut up I am pregnant!
29. My cell phone is… well used.
30. Before I go to bed… I read so that I can hopefully fall asleep.
31. Right now I am thinking about… when I will see my husband again knowing it will not be till very late.
32. Babies… eat your brain, make you tired, and are wonderful.
33. Today I… trying to relax enough so that I will not have to go on bed rest.
34. I really want to be…snuggling with my husband.
35. Someone that will most likely re-post this is… I don’t know I am not psychic.
Filed under: Rant
Going back to my political rampages I have been getting so very angry with how the government has so much to do with my life. I still get so frustrated with all of the laws that are made that tell me what I can or cannot do. It is sometimes hard to stick to the belief that we as a people should be able to make choices for our lives such as the case where parents have decided that they did not want to put their son through chemotherapy even though he would have a ninety percent chance of survival if they did so. I as a parent cannot understand the hesitation but as my husband and I were discussing it I realize that to have true freedom you have to fight for people’s freedom that you may disagree with what they chose to do with that freedom. This is a difficult thought for me. But I do feel the government has taken over so much, I worry that if someone gets a wild hair that they don’t like the way I am raising my child that all of a sudden I will have an investigation into my home. I know it is very important to protect children but I think the laws and regulations have gone to a wild and frightening place. I know of friends who have teenage children who blatantly state that if the parent punishes them they will turn them in for child abuse. I think it is a disservice to take the ability from parents to parent. I don’t think this is a small matter or something with a very easy answer but I think that we as a people need to stand up for our rights. The basis of this country is the right to govern ourselves. I say lets fight for our constitutional rights to choose how we live and hope people make good choices but living in a free country does not mean you should live in fear of retribution for your choices such as what religion to raise your children in, or how you choose to teach your children.
